It's been a challenge today to concretize very much in language. Simple articulation feels full of mistakenness. Interesting how that coincides with an acceptance of fallibility at the energetic level and an acknowledgment that there is no wrongness in being...even making mistakes does not convert your essence into "wrong". I was very attached as a child to a certain degree of perfectionism and fear of being wrong such that I would deliberately perpetuate behaviors from which I was consciously moving away because making a change would invalidate the past behaviors as wrong—a weaving of learning and unlearning that does not get one too far. It is amazing how much in the last couple months I have relinquished of that pattern, of the tension in my day to day, the frustrations with "inability to do", and how much that relinquishment owes to surrender and thus forth, creation.
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